soo much to say…
therapy has helped me so much. i have spent the last couple of years adjusting to my life without a man and loving myself as much as i love others. showing the compassion i have for others and giving myself the same breaks and letting go of the guilt. its been extremely hard for sure…
I don’t understand
I thought I was on the road to recovery and getting “well” but I seem to be having more bad days than good. Or at least as many bad as good. It’s fucked up! There is sooo much shit on the internet and the more I learn about everything the worse I feel about myself.…
Best Friends No More…
My loss of my Best Friend in the whole wide world 😭 My BFF for 35+ years ended in 2020. I knew why I ended it but had no idea she also ended it till recently. Just before Xmas I ran into her at our Nail salon. I had run into her a few times…
Never Appreciated
Aug 17, 2023 My daughter is being a self-centered little bitch. She was in a emotionally abusive relationship for several years. Nothing I knew about of course. It ended and I was amazing to find out how bad it was. She’s not very forthcoming with life stuff. I get that. When I had traumatic issues…
My Rants
As a parent I choose to try to do the best for my child. Even when she is so fucking unappreciative. Damn I hope I don’t have to wait another 20 years for her to mature enough to realize I did the best I could with what I had. All I hear now is dont…
My Shit
Stuff I am going through right now…. I’m hoping if I put all my shit out into the universe it will get of head. I can always tell my moods by what I watch. Binge watching 2 scary series bc I am n a awkward / negative head space. been eating too much, spending too…
Otherhood
FYI: i typed in a savage rant so there are misspelling, no caps or apostrophesand many misspelled words……. read at your own discretion…… well i started this blog to vent about how my child thinks i am an idiot and have never experienced anything that she is experiencing. and it has been so long since…
at my wits end
2 nights ago I was evacuated from my home. A fire was in the neighborhood. Once I got home (the next day) i slept all day. I had no energy or desire to get up. So I slept. Today I got up feeling extremely odd. Kinda disconnected from… something…not sure what. Then sat down to…
the big fight
so me and my kid got into a massive fight. probably the biggest ever. i cussed her but she didn’t cuss me-interestingly enough. i was so mad. she said some shitty things and i said shittier stuff back. idk why she wanted to stay and fight but i tried to kick her out of the…
Uncertainty
so the last few weeks have been rough for me. I have been slightly depressed on and off. not bed depressed but lying on the couch lazy depressed. my therapist says it is ok to be (what i call lazy) down and taking it easy. i have always been active since coming off geodon. (SB:…
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